My vision=My dream=God's purpose FOR me.

Yesterday I had a talk with Uncle Mike over lunch. I shared him what I want to be in the future, that is, my vision from God. I have being seeking His purpose for years and finally I thought this is what God wants me to do.

First of all, I think every child with special need has different kinds of dreams for their future. Take the blind children I have been working with as an example. Though conversations we as volunteers knew that they are talented and not all of them want to be a massagist. Besides, we taught them and gave them chances to show their talent---instruments, poetry reading, singing, dancing etc. each week. They loved our lessons and had a lot of fun! From this example what I want to express is that children are young and they need someone to show them guidance. When we were young, our parents were the ones who taught us what we can be in the future. However, as for those blind children I worked with, no one has showed them way. All the people around them simply want to kindergarten them; let them survive instead of to live a life.

As for my vision, I want to pursuit my postgraduate in either special education or speech pathology. I want to make a difference, even if I can only influence one individual. I wish I can work in the U.S., learn more professional knowledge and gain experience. Most importantly, I will raise money for special need kids and invest a school in China that practice inclusive education. Besides, I wish I can organize a summer camp which not only provide children with interesting activities but also teach them how to play instruments and other kinds of arts, such as poetry reading, singing, dancing etc.

This dream would be hard, but as long as I am walking in His path, I will make it.

I began this article and finished it after 2 days; thus my idea is not as sequence. But I wish I have expressed it clearly and this is a record that I want to review in a few years.

My first "busiest" working day of BMH as a staff.

Just some short updates, I will update more when I have free time:

I arrived the Yantai Camp on July 4th with May, carrying part of the things we need. Then Daniel arrived and we did some shopping, rent a computer, got drinking machine, reorganized the office, etc. Besides all these, life is not all that busy. We are just waiting for all our other stuff to arrive. However, on July 6th. We got the news from Anna that we can’t have access to all our camp stuff which we put them in a man’s storage room last year. SO WE NEED TO START OUR PLAN B!!! After all sorts of preparation, Meghan, Becca, Lemon, Lemon’s sister, two American volunteers and I went out to hunt for mats, pillows, towels, quilts, bedding cloth, toys…to name just a few!!! By the way, we did not carry much cash with us…so…

Anyway, since our team is so organized and united and May has done some other shopping in downtown Yantai, finally we got everything ready for the camp!

This camp is already exciting at the beginning!

Life goes on.

Hi friends, long time no see!

It has been a while after my grandpa's death that I did not post any updates. I was recovering from the loss and I think I have grown more in Christ. Thank all the people I know who prayed for me, shared with me and care about me. Thank you.

During the pass months many things happened: I went back school for graduate thesis defense and got an "excellent", my thesis is about to be published; my mom is having hard time dealing with her siblings about the up-in-the-air heritage; my father is still in sickness and sadness; I graduated from University, with no job and many pressures from other family members except my parents; I saw all my beloved foreign teachers off; I rent a room with my friend, preparing for the postgraduate exams...And now, I am in BRING ME HOPE CAMP as a staff!!

As for the latest plan, I have been working on the application of the master degree about special education or speech pathology in the U.S. I think this is what God wants me to do in the future. At the same time, I am preparing for the Chinese national postgraduate entrance exam as a backup option. Last year I applied for Peking University and I was 29 scores less than their criterion. Since my family cannot afford the high tuition fee even if I got admitted by any of the U.S. universities, I need to find a school that offers special education degree and scholarships! Sounds like a lot of jobs, right? Don't worry. Although I am busy, I don't feel very exhausted because God is the one who strengthens me.


Life goes on and------
Let's see what God will work out for me!