He wants to go home.

He wants to go home.

Today I went to the hospital again with my passionate notes. After reading the notes, my grandpa wrote down “HOME” with his trembling hand. Even though the character is hard to be recognized, we all understood.

All the family members cried. We don’t know what to do. He wants to go home! What should we do?!! Going home without doctors and devices means death! God, please tell me what to do!!

Anyway, my grandpa is not in a calm mood and I wrote a note wanting him to stay calm and let’s wait and have confidence.

Today is so hard for me.

Afterwards, I had a look at of the list of the treatments. As I read it, my tears couldn’t help but dropping---these can be so painful and my grandpa is all suffering! Maybe going home is a good method? But I don’t want him die! Why is he reacting this way today? Didn’t he get the gospels and encouragements I have given to him? Did the verses work????

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I went home with tears in my eyes and doubts in my mind. God, did you hear my prayers? Everyone is suffering, please have mercy on us, please…I would like to take all the responsibilities of the sins they have done. They are simply didn’t know you…They are not doing that on purpose....

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Thankfully, as I arrived home, the first thing I did is to open my Bible. Even though I have doubts, I still trust YOU. You are doing your work in your way, the best way for us!

And when I checked the email box, one thing surprised me most is that, all the emails are telling me not to lose faith! Thank you all! Thank you for reminding me!!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

                                           ----- Psalm 23:4

I gotta read the The book of job again. 

God is with us!