Where is the way? You are the way.

Sorry for no updates for 2 days.

Yesterday everything seems to be a good sign: 1. The doctor removed the breathing machine and my grandpa is adjusting pretty well. According to the doctors, if he can breathe without the machine for 2 days, he would be able to get out of the ICU and move to the emergency ward. 2. My mom and aunt went into the ICU to comfort my grandpa face to face yesterday. My grandpa was calm and conscious; he also talked with them through sign language. All the relatives were very happy yesterday.

But today, everything went back to the worse stage. This morning the nurse told my mom that my grandpa pulled out the tub which provides him with nutritious liquid as food substitute. Worse still, since the amount of carbon dioxide is his blood is increasing and the doctors decided to use the breathing machine again. Moreover, this afternoon, he even pulled out tubs that inserted into his body. On hearing this, my mom cried and rushed to the hospital. She has been out for at least 3 hours and I can’t contact her.

I really cannot understand what God’s plan is for my grandpa; and, for the family. I thought my grandpa is recovering and as long as he can move to the emergency ward rather than staying in the ICU I can talk with him about the Bible and God. However, probably because he has been in the ICU for too long (1 month) and he is losing patience and hope. I dare not send him the notes any longer, for he cries every time he reads the notes and wants to go home.

God, please tell me what to do and please help my parents and other family members, for they are not yet believers and without God everything is too hard.

God, please tell me what I suppose to do.

P.S. I need to head for Shanghai on early tomorrow morning. The day after tomorrow on 7:30a.m. will be the advanced interpretation exam. I put everything in God’s hand. I am too tired to have my own understanding now.